cellini's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- And Cook Her Breakfast &shit My date with Lauren last night went til 3 am. The conversation was such that she's definitely interested in dating me, but hesitates slightly over a potential mis-match in what we are looking for. She wants casual, whereas I am basically looking to get married. I fucked up and did not kiss her. It was kind of a positioning thing. Like, the way we were sitting and proximity and shit. But she invited me to her house for Atheist J3wish Christmas dinner. The problem is that I am basically broke and only have $20 to my name at the moment. I'm owed plenty of money, but have none of it in hand at the moment. So I can't really ask her out on another date right this minute. What I want to do it ask her out on another date this weekend and then actually kiss her. I like her more and more as I spend more time with her. I would definitely like to be inside of her. As I fell asleep last night I was fantasizing about spooning her naked and thinking about how nice it would be to fall asleep like that. Tonight I told Kerri about my date with Lauren and she's all excited for me. It's nice that she's not jealous. I could imagine a situation where I date/fuck both of them. Kerri is obviously fine with that and Lauren says she isn't looking for super serious relationship. But the reality would probably be that if I manage to snag Lauren as my girlfriend, I wouldn't want to be dating anyone else. I really, really, really want to be Lauren's boyfriend. Points in my favor: - Physically attractive Points against me: - Broke as shit On the whole, I think that I would be excellent boyfriend material for Lauren. Meanwhile, various other women are suddenly trying to date and/or fuck me. All very nice people, but poor fits for me. Kerri is perfectly satisfying as a fuck buddy and casual girlfriend. She's beautiful, in incredible shape, and gives great blowjobs. The fact that she is married is a good thing -- that keeps the relationship from ever getting serious. We wouldn't work as a married couple. She doesn't create stuff and doesn't have any drive to accomplish anything big. Which is fine -- Kerri is doing her thing and she is happy. But she wouldn't be a good primary partner for me. And that's why she is perfect as a part-time, once or twice a week girlfriend for sex and friendship. I still haven't gotten to fuck her bareback and we haven't done anal. But aside from that, Kerri is entirely satisfactory to me in her role in my life. I really don't see a need to complicate my life by adding another woman to fuck -- unless it is Lauren, which is a whole other thing because I don't just want to fuck her but also genuinely admire her and want to be around her a lot and cook her breakfast &shit. 12:11 a.m. - 2017-12-19 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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